Slow Progress

Wow, time moves quickly. I haven't blogged for two weeks, so I'll try to summarize the past two weeks and will commit to blogging at least twice a week going forward.
I need the outlet to vent plus want to be able to go back through my thoughts of this journey...and well, in order to do that, I need to write out my thoughts, right?
I've been staying on plan as far as eating goes...which is huge for me! But, I have been struggling with exercise. I was walking a lot at the beginning, but haven't walked at all for over a week now. I can see the all or nothing mentality peeking through on that, so will work hard to squash that going forward. This week, I plan to walk at least 30 minutes Monday-Friday. I'd like to do more, but I need to set the bar a little lower, so I'll just get moving again.
I'm seeing a little progress, but definitely slower than I expected/hoped for.
Weigh in # 3 showed a gain of .4 lbs. Ok, not much, but still. I know I ate junkier that week than I should have, but I still stayed under my points. Well, I used all my daily and weekly points and about half of my activity points.
Weigh in # 4 I lost 1.6 lbs. Ok, going the right direction, but not much. I know this is gonna be a long road, I just thought it would start out better.
I know I'm a bit of a hypochondriac, but I've thought for a while that I might have PCOS, and I'm starting to think that even more now. The next time I see the Dr., I'll bring it up. I know that women with PCOS have irregular periods, difficulty getting pregnant, gain weight easily and have a hard time losing weight. Hmmmm, could be something else, or could be nothing, but, I wonder.
This week, I've stayed under my points every day but am still eating junk. WHY???? I rationalize that it's 'healthier junk' but junk is junk, right? ugh! This is where my all or nothing mentality comes in to play. calories are calories, points are points, right? Regardless of what I eat, I need to take in less than 41 points and I should be good, but I don't feel that way.
I really am not expecting much of a loss this week, but there's still a few days, so hopefully that will change.
If I really want this, and I do! I need to step up my game a little. I'm big at baby steps, so here's my steps for the week.
I will
-continue to journal everything I eat
-eat between 38-41 points daily
-not use any of my weekly or activity points
-drink 4-5 bottles (32oz each) water daily
-eat whole grains daily
-eat/drink 2 servings of dairy daily
-eat 5 or more servings of fruits and veggies daily
-eat 1 serving or less of cheese daily
-eat no more than 4 points of junk (including granola bars) per day
-blog at least twice
-go to my meeting and weigh in
-post daily for the challenge I joined
-walk 30 minutes or more Monday-Friday

This week will be better!!!